I Failed poem

I failed you
I know I did
The way you yell at me
The way you look at me
I know

You said...I should be positive
And I was doing just that
It seemed like you lied though
You scolded me for being on the computer all day
I couldn't help it
I was having fun
Isn't that what you wanted?

I'm sorry I couldn't socialize
But that's ok
You said I was right not to at my high school
Right after they disrespected you at Grad Nite
I knew being a loner was a good choice
Otherwise, I would have disrespected you
More than I already have

I can't help being comfortable in sweat pant
A t-shirt is nice too
Even though people may think I am lazy
I am not self-respecting
I don't look out for myself

I try to remember things
I try very hard
It seems that I choose to
I thought I was doing my best
I guess I didn't try hard enough

I know, I eat too much
Can't help with my emotions
And I LOVE eating
Especially when we don't have enough money
We can't blame my sweet tooth of course
Nor my love for meat
It's my mistake
Especially when I look like I am pregnant

You know I love you, right?
I don't mean to show that I don't care
But I really do
No matter how angry or how hard you hit me
I still love you
I remember when you told me about your dad
How he hit, yell, or almost burnt your hand on the stove
I fear my hand will actually burn
You are indeed stronger than me
But I still love you
No matter how much you terrify me
Is that ok with you?
Mom?